Picking up the pieces

So.

I'm not as strong as I thought I was.

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; 

a broken and contrite heart, 

O God, you will not despise.

psalm 51:17

MY TEETH ACHEEEEEEEEEEE!

My teeth acheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

It's almost 4 a.m. and I have to wake up in 3 hours time to get ready for church and I can't sleep cos my teeth acheeeeeeeeeeeeee soooooooooooooo baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad!!

That's what I get for being lazy and not wearing my retainers nightly as advised by my dentist. Wearing them again after not wearing them for one or two nights inflicts excruciating tension and pain on my poooooooooooor tiny, cute teeth.

The point of this post is just to let someone, anyone know that my teeth ache so bad and I can't sleep. And I can't take out the retainers, cos I have got to teach 'em stubborn teeth and mould them back into shape again! :( :(

Was busy mugging for exams. Last minute, as usual. I hope I pass. God, help me pass please! New posting is gonna be Orthopaedics, which I know absolutely nothing about. Semester 6 of medical school beckons and I will be busy turning over a new leaf I hope and not having enough time to update this blog, so maybe you'll see me next month? Or the month after? Haha. 

Decisions, decisions

I. DO. NOT. LIKE.:

1. Seminars

- Arghh. How many slides should I prepare? How to classify it effectively? Arghh. Although, I must admit that neonatal jaundice is much more my cup of tea than febrile and afebrile fits.

2. 8 hour bus rides

- Currently sleep deficient.

P.S.: I would so kill for a huge plate of Carbonara Fettucini right now. Anyone? Arghh.

Don't mind me. I'm just being difficult and grumpy and fastidious and any other negative adjective you can conjure up at this moment. So there!

Note to self: I still have one crappy presentation to polish up, one case write up to do, prepare sharing for CG's sem closing, need to wash and polish car urgently, need to study for finals which is in 3 weeks, only 3 weeks (all of Medicine, Paediatrics and Community Medicine..which is what, about only one million chapters). OHHH, just shoot me, thankyouverymuch :(

Good riddance to bad rubbish

Now you're saying that the crime rate is just a perception of individuals?

Yeah, right!

So, I guess it was just my perception that I was stopped (TWICE, mind you) by a group of Mat Rempits slash snatch thiefs in a space of a few months? 

I guess it was just my perception when they took out their knives and threatened my friend and I?

I guess it was just my perception that my 2 handphones and money were stolen together in one night?

I guess it was just my perception that the second time around, my friend got pushed down and sustained injuries?

I guess it was just my perception that the house I was renting a room at got broken into and my housemates' laptop and whatnot got stolen?

I guess it was just perception when so many people I know (I'm serious) were robbed, many at knifepoint?

Wow, the whole country must be in a perpetual state of delirium for us to have had so many 'altered perceptions'.

Seriously!

What other rubbish will you people come up with next??!!

Do we look like we're cretins?

*bangs head on wall repeatedly*

P.S.: sorry for the atrocious English and grammar, I'm just so frustrated with some people I can't process my thoughts well.

The Road Already Taken

Sometimes, I wish I could go back to the crossroads.

Back to before it all began.

Will I be able to say this in 5 or 10 years from now?

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

I don't know. I really don't know. 

Somehow jazz and rain seem to go well together.

Of cos they don't fit hand-in-hand when you're drenched in the rain, but rather, at night, just after you've had a nice, warm bath, when quiet is everywhere except for the sound of rain falling against your window, and you're tucked up nicely in a cosy corner of your room (it's even better if you have a fireplace), both hands holding onto a cuppa steaming something, possibly coffee or cocoa (or here in Malaysia, Milo). 

At this moment, I'm wishing it would snow for Christmas this year, just once. 

I'm beginning to feel the warmth and fuzz :) :)

And this. Is the Rockefeller Christmas tree which I so-absolutely fell in love with from the first time I laid eyes on it in Home Alone 2.  Have you ever seen a Christmas tree more beautiful? 

21 When my heart was grieved
       and my spirit embittered,
 22 I was senseless and ignorant;
       I was a brute beast before you.
 23 Yet I am always with you;
       you hold me by my right hand.
 24 You guide me with your counsel,
       and afterward you will take me into glory.
 25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
       And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
 26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
       but God is the strength of my heart
       and my portion forever.
 27 Those who are far from you will perish;
       you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
 28 But as for me, it is good to be near God.
       I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
       I will tell of all your deeds.

And this, is because my God is good

Many things about tomorrow
I don’t seem to understand;
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand. —Stanphill

When?

When things seem to be headed no where,

When the road seems dark ahead

When all that's around you are floods and thunderstorms,

When the jelly refuses to jell,

When the need to cry arises, but tears just can't flow.

When? When? Til when?

Lord, I tak boleh anymore.

Please carry me thru.